Tired. Sick. And stress.

I'm tired, tired of this condition. I don't know why, too much problem that I can't control. I want to break free! I'm too young to have problem like this. So complicated. Sick, yeah I'm sick. No one can unterstand what I feel, just God who know me so well. I'm so sick, I'm so weak. But I still stay. Maybe in front of your face I look stronger, but inside? I'm so weak. I hide million tears with a FAKE SMILE. You must know that just because I smile doesn't mean I'm happy. I just hide my feelings from you. Cause I don't want to make you worry. Stress yeah I'm stress. I'm crazy of being like this. I can't realize that my life is so difficult to understand. I'm stress of this pain. Pain that I feel. This pain is killing me slowly, this pain is so deep. Hell yeah! What the fvck hah? It's my life and so many people around me but no one can understand it. Yeah I know I'm not alone, I have family, friends, and YOU. But you must know that sometimes I feel so lonely. I'm so unperfect. But with you I feel so perfect ♥

Maaf :p

October, 22nd 2010


Orang yang nyakitin gue minta maaf ke gue HAHAHA

Akhirnya dia ngaku salah juga sama gue wkwk makanya jangan MAEN HATI sama gue boy!

NEKAT HANGOUT

Hello bloggy :)

Gue mau cerita hal gila yang gue lakuin sama temen temen gue. Ini semua bener-bener diluar dugaan deh Jadi pas pulang sekolah gue sama temen-temen tuh ngikutin adek kelas yang temen-temen gue demenin. Pulang sekolah itu dia naik bis 75 ya udah gue naik tuh bareng si adek kelas haha salting abis temen-temen gue. Itu adek kelas juga heran kali ngeliat kita. Sumpah ya urat malu kita tuh bener-bener putus saat itu dan gak tau deh apa yang dipikiran kita sekarang. Akhirnya gue sama temen-temen turun di Pejaten Village.

Oke pas di PenVil kita tuh niat nya mau langsung pulang eh gue aus kan tuh gue ajakin mereka ke hypermart aja beli apa kek minuman disana. Nah di deket hypermart ada Bread Life si arin tau tau pengen beli yaudah gue temenin dan.................gue gak sanggup ngeliat roti coklat yang menggoda haha akhirnya anas vika sama gue ikutan beli deh wkwkwk itu juga gue minjem duit sama vika deh. Nah pas udah beli bread life kita bingung tuh mau makan dimana akhirnya kita ke AW deh beli eskrim doang itu hahaha kacau deh disana kita foto-foto dan inilah hasilnya:

Abis itu gue janjian sama liana pacarnya tommy dia kan sekolah di smkn 8 tuh eh dia mau gue suruh ke pevil akirnyaaaa gue ketemu juga sama itu cewek hihi tapi cuma ngobrol sebentar abis itu capcus deh kitaaaaa.

Kita semua nunggu bis sekolah soalnya duit kita pas-pasan eh tapi bis sekolah lama banget datengnyaaa yaudah nunggu 75 deh kita. Di pinggir penvil sambil nunggu bis kita tuh gila banget deh bner-bener gila. Terus si vka nyuruh gue nyanyi lagi cinta fitri ditembok ya gue nanyi kan tuh si vika ngakak bener-bener. Pas gue nanya:

Gue: Vika kok lo ngakak sih?

Vika: Lo gila banget itu tadi diliatin orang2 tolol sampe pada ngakak juga!

Gue: Ha? Serius? Kok lu gak bilang sih aaaa gue malu

Vika: Kan gue bilang riska udaah

Gue: Ya malu abis gue vik -____-

KONYOL!! Hahaha sumpah malu banget gue atapi bodo ah yang penting gue gak kenal sama tuh orang-orang jadi pede aja hahaha. Udah deh tuh kita pulang dan sampe rumah dengan selamat. Pokoknya today is a FREAK DAY! LOL

Galau

Gue lagi G-A-L-A-U :""( Astgfrllh gue galau banget ini ampun deeeh. Yah pasti udah pada tau lah apalagi coba yg bikin cewek galau kalo bukan cowok. Yeah, cowok! Ohmygosh, gue dalam dilema ini yampun. Gue bingung mau dia apa. Gue juga bingung mau gimana. Dulu gue percaya banget kalo dia emang ada perasaan sama gue, dan dia juga sering bilang itu ke gue. Tapi sekarang tiba-tiba gue ragu dan berpikir dia cuma anggep gue pelampiasan (sorry ya gue neting sama lo) Entah kenapa semuanya jadi berubah gini. Yang tadinya deket banget tiba-tiba jadi ada sesuatu yang berubah, gue ga tau apa itu yang pasti gue ngerasa ada yang janggal antara gue dan dia. Ga enak banget jadi gue, asal tau aja masalah ini ngures pikiran gue banget. Gak ada yang ngerti perasaan gue dan gue pun ga ngerti sama perasaan gue sendiri. Gue gak tau apa yang harus gue lakuin sekarang. Menjauh dari lo? Yampun kayaknya itu ga gampang, lo aja tiap detik ada di otak gue dan gak mungkin gue pura-pura cuek sama lo sedangkan dalem hati gue ngarep banget sama lo. Tolong dong boy beri gue kepastian. I need your certainty! Lo udah bikin gue galau kyk gini yampun. Ngertiin gue, berapa lama lagi gue harus nunggu lo? Kalo emang lo gamau sama gue yaudah bilang sama gue jadi gue bisa move on gak usah nunggu lo yang gak pasti. A a a a a a gue gila ini mikirin cowok kayak dia. What should I do know? Somebody please tell me! Oh God help me please :(

Galau

SUNSET :)

California Girls - Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg

CALIFORNIA GIRLS - KATY PERRY ft. SNOOP DOGG


Snoop Dogg:
Greetings loved ones
Let's take a journey

Katy:
I know a place
Where the grass is really greener
Warm, wet and wild
There must be something in the water
Sippin' gin and juice
Laying underneath the palm trees (undone)
The boys
Break their necks
Try'na creep a little sneak peek (at us)



You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
to the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
we'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

Sex on the beach
We got sand in our stilettos
We freak
In my jeep
Snoop Doggy Dogg on the stereo (oh oh)

You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
to the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
we'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California gurls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

Snoop Dogg:
Toned, Tanned
Fit and ready
Turn it up cause its gettin' heavy
Wild, wild west coast
These are the girls I love the most
I mean the ones
I mean like shes the one
Kiss her
Touch her
Squeeze her buns

The girls a freak
She drives a jeep
The men on the beach
I'm okay
I won't play
I love the Bay
Just like I love LA
Venice beach
and Palm Springs
Summer time is everything

Homeboys
Hangin' out
All that ass
hanging out
Bikinis, tankinis, martinis
No weenies
Just a king
and a queen-ie
Katy my lady
(yeah)
now look at here baby
(uh huh)
Im all up on you
Cause you representin' California
(ohhh yeahh)

Katy:
California gurls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
we'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California gurls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
(West coast, west coast)
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

Snoop Dogg:
(Californiaaa, Californiaaa)
California girls man
I wish they all could be
California girls
(Californiaaa)
I really wish
You all could be
California girls
(Californiaaa, girls)